I have been through a lot since I was last on my page.
Between working seven days a week, eight hours a day. I've also been very sick, the worst of which I am struggling with is pain and the fact that I feel like I need to be sleeping constantly. This is not a good combination when you have a heap of University work that needs to be completed.
I have however managed to keep a fairly steady relationship going for the past seven months. It looks like I may be getting a very lovely ring to sit on my finger!
He loves me for me, and I've said this before but now I actually realised what it means. I have never felt true love until I met him.
I've also never met someone that when they stuff up my heart breaks into a million pieces and he has to spend the next ten days picking them up and gluing them back together.
His heart is in the right place, and he works harder than anyone ever has to keep me. He knows I'm as consistent as the butterfly. I go where I please, I do what I please and I really take little into account with anyone but myself. Maybe I'm more like a cat?
He loves my independence however and gives me the space I need to create, inspire and build my creations and my confidence.
I am however at a loss as too what I want at the moment. I am in pain, 90% of the time and the other 10% I'm waiting for the pain to come back. Not the life I want, or need. So I need to figure something out before I end up spiraling into a hole of depression that so easily opens itself inside me.